clouds in my coffee

22 october 2011

2011-10-22T05:57:00.000-07:00

It's not that we aren't meant to be together, I think that we're just not ready for forever

something i've realised.. why do you always put a 100% in a relationship? why? how do you know that this relationship will be the one? if you say 'LOVE' hmm, think twice .

like you never?

2011-08-23T03:02:00.000-07:00

so many words so many lies, eenie mini mynie mo, which is told, which is hidden , which is the truth? be smart. be wise.

might think its a tiny lie? tell me the difference between tiny , small , big and huge lies? the size of it? well, what about similarity? they're just lies, still in one category.

but bare in mind people who accept those lies , always smiles and walk away.

bye.

memories?

2011-07-18T09:59:00.000-07:00

dont you ever questioned yourselves?

some memories are automatically x-out but some stays put in the tiny lil part of the brain. say... the expression on your mummy's face when you first take your lil baby steps? i want to have a memory of how things felt or how things smelled, i want to have those kind of memories!

and those kind of memories which stays are somehow connected to feelings , something you want to hold on to or something you can't let go. well its like a diary.

recently, i've been haunting my memories, i've missed them, i want to be in that particular memory again, i want to do, say or feel the same again. i think i kinda need a time machine. well past is the past ay? that is why it is called 'memory' and they say move on...

!!@#@#

2011-01-03T07:38:00.000-08:00

have you ever felt so urghhhh erggghhhh irgggghhhhh??! eventhough you're shouting, no one hears you? yea. it feels like ripping off an expensive top!

what else?

2010-10-01T03:14:00.000-07:00

what else can i do?

two books cover

2010-08-15T20:52:00.000-07:00

i was reading back my old posts, and there was a blog i blogged about choices. (2008) well, yes, there is definitely a list of choices in life, and it depends on which one you'd choose. so, i guess from the way things turn out, it looks like i've been choosing the not-so-right ones. ... some. or im just trying to prove myself wrong in the decisions i made. something's definitely wrong with me. ah. blame the part of the brain which controls emotions. but you know what, im a virgo, i cant help it. so what if im a clean freak, but there is always a mess somewhere hidden under the bed or in the closet (if you have not noticed) , and so what if i evoke negative feelings? but something you should know about a virgo, we 'virgos' have uncanny sense of our surroundings, people, so before getting to know a virgo, i suggest you read about us, just so to avoid problems. heh

2010-07-12T21:15:00.000-07:00

life is base on a series of choices. everyone goes from choosing the wrong one to the right one, and some of them know it is wrong but yet wants it to be right, or trying to turn it into right, am i right?

ok. im off to watch some dvds.

po po po poker FACE

2010-06-08T20:58:00.000-07:00

i am currently dealing with STRESS. the main source of STRESS is of course ,the university itself.
so much to do, so little time. such a cliche and yet its true. eventhough my assignments are not as much as it were before, (because i was doing it of course) i still have so much to do, search this and that, copy this and that, design this and that, stupid stuff, but fun. *weird* my finals is only less than two weeks away, my progress is... 0% sigh. i would love to work on my finals now, but i have others to do as well. SH*T. these two minutes im taking now, to blog, i could have used the two minutes to take out my pencils. aihhhhhh. aosfhsh\fwyefsdbfamsnffie.
bye!!!

b

2010-05-22T02:30:00.001-07:00

...so.. my last update was in *coughs* march. what have i been up to yea? ... gee... i dont know, im tired. my brain is not in a thinking mode right now.
ah. i went to kuching, school trip. more and more assignments. hm. speaking of school, my semester is coming to an end soon, 3 more weeks, which means 3 more weeks of torture and stress and sleepless nights! sigh. architecture, architorture.
and now.. i better get back to my assignment. this..!
pfft... bye now

b.

shoot me. im a girl

2010-03-14T20:19:00.000-07:00

i sometimes am embarrassed by my own gender. yes, he'd pick her over you among all the other girls, so just back off now and its time for you to get your own .

no.

2010-02-21T07:59:00.000-08:00

who's gonna tell me its the wrong way to put the memory card in my camera?

counting on ..

2010-02-20T07:50:00.000-08:00

up to now, im still thinking what is there left to count? days? time? its just a shit part of your life where it would tear down the whole side of a wonderful life of yours you thought you were having.
my fear is actually the journey of my life. where ? with who? yes i love surprises, but when it comes down to this.. i would rather know what's gonna happen..
i need signs! i hate this so much..when its time, it is time. guess i have to accept that.

i know when to go away and trust me i know when to come closer.

and so last night, drunk! but im glad i was with him.

geez.. time flies. sigh.

my boyfriend says..

2010-02-11T05:51:00.000-08:00

her boyfriend sat down on his squeeky chair.
his girlfriend said "im gonna blog now, havent been blogging for quite some time"
" you're just gonna say, my stupid boyfriend is playing his stupid game'' says the mister.
so the girlfriend...

my stupid boyfriend is playing his STUPID game.

and yes, that's my stupid boyfriend. too bad i love him. ;D

emotional injury

2010-02-04T06:09:00.000-08:00

life is a series of hellos and goodbyes yea? time goes by so fast. people walk in and out of your life. how can everything in life be so vulnerable?
sometimes the best thing to do is to hold up your head high, blink back all the tears and say goodbye.

i would let you go because i know you're worth holding onto.

flying with the mister

2010-01-13T05:20:00.000-08:00

the day has finally arrived. will be leaving to bangkok tomorrow.. with the mister. =)

heh, sorry mrblog, i'll see you after 2 weeks. ;)

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day out with mr october

2010-01-08T23:02:00.001-08:00

had a movie marathon, haha. well, not really but we watched two movies, one after the another,
the chipmunks and the morgans. then tony roma's. aha! and i kinda bombed the place with my skills in opening the tomato sauce bottle.

haha. what a day. and i got back home missing the mister

4 more days. =)
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twenty ten

2010-01-08T22:54:00.000-08:00

new year's celebration in el habanero, capsquare. not quite like a pack party place but it was good. less crowded more space.

happy 2010 people!

..

2010-01-05T17:30:00.001-08:00

some things are not meant to be easy. those some things might not be easy because of something. that something is something which is definitely are not meant to be changed. sometimes, some things are better to be left unchanged.

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thoughts

2010-01-05T00:04:00.001-08:00

i was doing some thinking in the head. and it was just playing around with words of 'do's and donts' . =) no reason why, heh.

see you mrblog.

but, should ay?

b.

last second. =)

2010-01-04T23:45:00.000-08:00

i've been listening to this song, didnt know i had this song in my playlist till the first day of new year. im not really a big fan of her's but this song is just .... nice. =)

You know that I love you so
I love you enough to let you go
I want you to know
It doesn't matter where we take this road
Someone's gotta go
And I want you to know
You couldn't have loved me better
But I want you to move on
So I'm already gone

'already gone' by kelly clarkson
it'd be better if neyo sang it. =)

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happy birthday2010

2010-01-01T08:35:00.000-08:00

a new beginning?

2009-12-30T17:59:00.000-08:00

nahh. my new beginning started when i came into existence. 2010 is just another begining of a new year. but i'm definitely gonna party on the eve's, tonight. i'll miss you 2009, im not ready for 2010, especially the end of 2010, but life goes on. hm?

dear 2010, surprise me, will you?

ah. a toast to the old year and happy birthday 2010

b.

ps. first and last ay ?

christmas baby!

2009-12-25T10:08:00.001-08:00

this is the time of the year i've been waiting for. CHRISTMAS!

well,my christmas is still going on, a whole week of dinners and parties with family and relatives.
PRESENTS.

miss you santa.

you no buy i cry land

2009-12-17T08:38:00.000-08:00

NOW i have the time to update this blog. the trip to cambodia! was tiring yet fun.

basically, all the architecture students went for the trip. it's a must to go, some went to penang. since i've been in penang my whole life, why not to cambodia aye?

it was a 6 days trip. we were tied up with schedules of places to go to and people to meet, dont even know why we had a meet up with the minister. and i realised one thing about cambodia, they give scarfs as souveniers! the whole trip, i've collected 6 scarfs, weird..

anyways, my finals was about the architecture in cambodia, pretty interesting country. they have the most finest and tiniest details of carvings, designs on the walls, roofs and gosh. even the floor. the best was angkor wat. so beautiful. sigh.

but sadly,it was flooded at that week when we went. but what the heck, it was worth an experience. =D

and so do you know wjhy i called it the 'you no buy i cry land'?

haha. it all started when we stopped at ont of the pit stops , all the lil kids will shout and push their way out from each other to open the car door and say this

lil girl: buy from me, one dollar only

ok, so andy said no to one of the girls, then after a while, we pitied them, so we bought the pineapples for one freaking dollar. then the other one came, we bought AGAIN. and another one came, we closed the door and locked it. and what they did was, they banged the car window so hard that we got so worried that it might break, so andy opened the door, and one of the girl threw a spider on andy and closed the door. and she said ' you owe me 4 dollars. ' the spider was one dollar, and three other fruits. goshh. this was one hell of a business .

but we had to open the door to ask the lil girl to take the spider off andy's top, haha. so she said this

lil girl : buy from me, one dollar only

andy : i buy so many already

lil girl : no, you buy from my friend, you no buy from me

andy : ....

lil girl : you no buy from me, i cry.

and she did cry! so annoying.

no time may28

2009-11-01T22:19:00.000-08:00

why for mr.may!
weeeee

eighteen on the eighteenth

2009-09-21T05:18:00.000-07:00

boom boom shake shake now DROP!!!

they got me so drunk on the day after my birthday.

shh. *wink*

happy birthday to me. =D

drastic change

2009-08-18T06:37:00.000-07:00

i changed college too many times, decided to stay after the third change.
but everything are so far away. friends, close ones, places.. but education wise, its perfect. =)

my first week here and i already have 4 assignments to do.
most of them are drawings and sketches, and i will take at least 5 hours to complete an A3 size paper, i need to do 14 pages.

it is very challenging and it is definitely a race against time.

till then,

b.

and then i went back

2009-07-27T10:24:00.001-07:00

didnt tell anyone that i was back till i got down the bus.

i went to bagan with joanne and surprised d. she said this a few days ago before i even know i was going down .

d: dont come and surprise me i tell you, i'll slap you.

haha. and she did not slap me. =D

love you d!

and then we went downtown , ss, fame and mois.

hm. met a few friends. nothing change. yea, nothing.

in a tiny box

2009-07-23T04:20:00.000-07:00

im so stuck, i cant even move an inch now. what the hell? it only looks like there ARE choices, but f'k you. not even a choice.

life's a mess.

my last night,it seems.

2009-07-13T09:30:00.000-07:00

gspot!! dasha was singing in gspot and it was my last night, so i went for it. really sad at the end of the night. not much to say, i really miss her!

penny

her B and my D

apparently these are the only 2 photos im in, so much for my many pictures night, wasnt really in the mood either. but i will always smile if there's a camera in front of me. =)

im a junior!

2009-07-09T23:35:00.000-07:00

do you remember what its like on the first day of kindergarten? everyone knows what kids do on their first day, and they think they know what they did on their first day, can you exactly remember what you did? honestly i cant remember my first day. there are many different types of people. some are the shy type, some are those who desperately need friends so they wouldnt be alone, some are just ..i dont know. a loner i guess...

my class is starting next monday, so yeah, meeting new people, new friends.' new best friends.' hahaha! especially new roommates and housemates.

the point is, im actually going to college now!! i dont know anyone there, and in the freshman's year. feels like when i was 7 years old, standard 1 waiting to be in standard 6.

the only think is that there wont be any booksmart student or the nerd of the year who always gets first in class tryna impress the parents with good grades bla bla bla, but there are only gonna be the capable ones, competitions between the competetive ones, the real skill and talent. this is the real deal.

i bet im gonna s p r e a d myself real thin this time, doing this and that at the same time. sigh

but this is that part of life where you tip toe your way up. i'll tyr to jump.haha. 7 years of tip-toe-ing? i'll ended up having no feet. double sigh. i'll see what brings.

i'll definitely miss penang, last year i was so eager to go to kl but now .. i just dont. penang is the laid back relaxing place to be in, whereas kl? the first thing you'll hear or smell when you open the window are the smell of gasses and the honkings of vehicles. so noisy. i feel like a grandmother, haha. but yea, its a very hectic city . besides, im not ready to live in a city yet. triple sigh.

but im ready to see the drama of my college. i hope im the audience. haha.

packed my bags, physically ready to move. *shouting*

how can you leave this ?

but my college is moving to a better environment than the one it is located in now. in september i guess. this is the new one.

isnt it pretty? i have this thing for pretty places.

but i'll be coming back to penang quite often, i hope.

a longgggggggggggggggggggggggg day

2009-07-05T22:33:00.000-07:00

im trying to emphasize the long word, but i think i reached the maximum. haha. but damnnn, i seriously had a long day. was so tired, didnt had enough sleep the day before.

i went for lunch with penny, unlce clive , jack and hector in bbb and then to wawasan university for the carnival. was under the sun for 2 hours , sitting down on the grass of the field. what to do ? we're your die hard fans D. haha. jack, omesh, D and i stayed till 8 then dinner. and i went back to D's place, and then straight to gspot. we were so tired!! i dont know why we went, but we wanted to go, so we did. and left at 1. i crashed out right away.

the day was weird, really weird.

their independence day.

2009-07-05T22:26:00.000-07:00

it was a blue, red and white party night in bagan. joanne and i couldnt decide on the outfits, i ended up wearing everything red and she wore all the colours except blue. bagan was quite packed, but i missed d's set. joanne picked me up quite late, reached there around 11ish, her set ends at 10.30. pfffttttt. but we partied together. =) last few nights with you, i'll miss you priyadashini!!!!

the king of pop

2009-06-28T22:46:00.000-07:00

the world mourns him, the loss of michael jackson left the world devastated. how can this happen? he didnt even have the few days to live for his comeback , he was due to make his return to the stage in london next july but he left instead. it was terribly a shocking news.

he definitely is the legend. the king of pop who sets the world dancing, who changed the music and entertainment industries had left the world. we'll have the memories and music , it'll be around forever.i've always admired him. god bless you mr mj.

smiley faces all around the world

2009-06-21T08:45:00.001-07:00

she jumps and she smiles.

=)

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see you my sailorfriend.

2009-06-16T09:22:00.000-07:00

blarhhh. another friend left.

justin had gone to the lion city to be a sailor!! how cute is that. an actual popeye! haha.

so we took him out to celebrate his last few hours in malaysia. ao joanne and i dressed up, pretti-fied ourselves and headed out, and then they called and had a change of plans which is to the usual lepak point, the padang. ....................

the padang? for a farewell? you gotta be kidding me. it was all because of the so called great king kong leon isaac subramaniam. haha. dont scold me leon! was your fault. haha!

the bestfriends. byron & justin

but anyways, then joanne and i thought it was his last day, so maybe a lil bit more alcohol might be fun.and we got him drunk!!!! i was drinking coke the whole night, he thought we were all drinking with him, but it was actually to get him drunk! and the extra ' the watak sampingan ' leon subramaniam sudahmabuk. dia pun mabuk and he did some king kong dance moves.

we'll miss you justin.

b.

2009-06-07T22:05:00.000-07:00

3 months passed by so fast. the second batch of national service is finally over. sigh.

they had a fun carnival thing on sunday, so i went for it. went back to see the old friends. i think that day was the last i'll see them.

hm. so yea.. what to do..

and best of all!!!!! my company won!! ALPHA!!!!! we got the overall.

despite all those discipline problem, scoldings we got and everything bad you could think of happened because of us (haha), we still got the overall prize. i was so shocked.

but at that moment, i was hoping they would announce us as the winner and they did!!

ape yg penting?

kejesame!!!!!

hahahahaha.

so you people out there who got chosen for national service, go for it!! i bet you'll have so much fun that you wouldnt even mind to stay for another 3 months.

love,

ALPHA!!!

visting em'

2009-05-25T22:18:00.001-07:00

hari lawatan keluarga! i went for it. to visit my national service friends. gosh.. i miss them so much... most of them gone tanner than usual. we went without telling anyone of them, so we kinda surprised them that afternoon.

ahem. we kinda got lost on our way there.. sorry.. hehe. was my fault. =p
so pei shing and her boyfriend came to pick me and yin leng from tar college. tar? this yin leng la, had to follow her to her college to copy her class timetable. it took her half an hour to do that! yin leng memang yin leng. haha. then after picking us up, we went to MBS to pick up phey and thennnnn straight to our camp. =D

we reached around 10.30 and left at 3 ish. kinda sad to leave them again.. but i'll be going back there soon for the carnival thing which is on the last day of the camp.

til then. toodles.

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a night with daddy amir!

2009-05-19T09:52:00.000-07:00

flare bar ? *nods head* uh huh.. again. haha. actually i was quite tired for flare that night, both of us, joanne and i. but we did went for it. amir yusoff came down to perform and a few others too. =)
some were drunk, some were i dont know what were they after that night. haha. when the clock striked 12, i was already feeling sleepy, i hit my head so hard with my palm just to be awake, it was a sunday night, after my work.
and oh, i've started work. in baan thai! i love that place. awesome FOOD of course and friends and staffs. ok so about 'it was a sunday thing'. baan thai is a great place with great delicious thai food but the customers are somewhat few... maybe it is because of the location, kinda hidden. it looks more like a house instead of a fine dining restaurant, most regulars go there and some i dont know where they came from. ok so, every sundays.. hm..i cant say it is jam pack but QUITE pack le.. so it was my first sunday, i was the only one working, so it was damn tiring.. and party after a whole day of work? i am never gonna do that.. anymore. no way. haha.

anyways, after flare , it was about 4? we went back to amir's place. to talk but in less than ten minutes, BAMMMMMM!!!! i fell asleep on the couch..
haha. woke up at 8ish and they were still talking.. god... yeah.. what a night.

amir and chris

amir and joanne

wouldnt say it was a blast. but ok ok je le. haha

love you blog.

those nights. few nights ago.

2009-05-19T09:32:00.000-07:00

a party was held in fame last week, i guess.. some cigarette party.. couldnt remember. haha. another late party night.

gosh.. it was one tiring night. oh well, it went well, it was a clean party, nothing went wrong. =)

irritating

2009-05-13T08:33:00.000-07:00

i want to go back to my campppppppppppppppppppppppp!!!!!!!!
im so irritating, i know. heh.
i've got nothing to do till september........................ OH MY LORD!
i'll probably work, do something useful.

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alpha hot is hot to go
H-O-T T-O G-O
alpha pasti jadi jaguh
mari kita semua gempur
alpha pasti jadi juara
mari kita bolot semua
ohhhhhhhh.. ALPHA!

camp syruz. smiles

2009-05-13T06:28:00.001-07:00

so much memories i had with each and everyone of them.

*smiles*

love,

mcm mane ni... haha

2009-05-12T03:40:00.000-07:00

saya nak balik camp hari ini. tetapi tk boleh le, mcm mane ni.... hahaha

today is the last day of the semester break, and they have to go back to the land of flies.
sy nak jugakkk!!!!

hehe. muahh

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kenangan terindah ( our song)

2009-05-08T00:18:00.000-07:00

just came back from national service, my last day was today. it could have been tomorrow.. i miss them so so much now.

i wouldnt mind turning back time and start the whole camp again, i wouldnt have fallen down and fractured my knee, got so week and going to the medic a couple of times. because of all these, i got light duty till the day the camp ends, wanted to stay till the latihan ends, but i couldnt stand it that im not allowed to do anything, even 'berbaris'. i didnt get the chance to kayak, do the flying fox and everything. sigh...

this year and this badge is totally different from the other44 camps. i bet theirs arent that much fun as mine. normally camps,you'll only get to use phones on friday till sunday. but my camp, we got to use our phones for almost three weeks. our commandan is the best, he rewards us with our phones, all we need to do is to be discipline and be good. he doesnt mind wira and wirawati mixing with each other, he even said i love you to us everytime he talks to us,he planned so many things for us, dance course,batik course,make up course and many more. it is one shit fun camp, im so glad im in camp syruz. eventhough a lot of things happened, paranormal occurence, got into major trouble, misunderstandings.. but all in all, i had so much fun. i am going back for the majlis penutup,cant wait.

friends? staying there for almost two months with many new people you never thought you'll ever meet, different culture, different background and different races is something so... its an unexplainable feeling. i just miss them so much.. especially our company, we're very playful among other companies, the one who always get scoldings, the most complains from others.. but we're always together. we support each other when there's competitions, screaming our lungs out during cheering,marching.
we were all so close.....

sigh.. cant think of anything else but to go back there.

i've tons of pictures to be upload. soon i'll post em' up. few hundreds. =)
i love my national service's friends, commandan, and i love my camp, syruz.
can't believe i typed that. haha

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my pink night

2009-04-13T21:58:00.000-07:00

our wednesday night in flare bar.

my pink night.

something nothing

2009-04-13T20:52:00.001-07:00

i just realised the last three previous blog's headlines are all so sad and awkward. goodbye? hello? leaving? my life is just so sad. haha!

till then, loves!

ended and left

2009-04-13T20:30:00.000-07:00

im leaving to my camp in 3hours time. its gonna be only an hour journey from penang. cant wait! haha. i cant believe i just said that! hah!

so im just gonna keep this short.
yesterday!
so all of us who got called for the interview had to be in a formal attire, i thought of and wanted to wear those business suit shit. haha. so just to be sure, i checked online and they stated that formal attire , best in baju kurung. haha! so i had to do the baju kurung thing.
it was my first time wearing a baju kurung ( i mean with colours ) , i kinda tripped, stepped on the 'kain' . haha.

my mum and i went all the way to kl just for the interview in putrajaya and i waited for 5 hours till it was my turn.
when it was my turn, my heart started pounding , nerves started kicking in, i could even here the blood travelling around my body. that was totally how i felt at the moment i entered the interview room. i went in in a group of three which was the last group.
we were all then asked to take our seats, so we did and the interview started. there were 3 interviewers, i heard two of them are professional engineers (thank god i did not take engineering)

we were first asked to do self introduction in bahasa melayu.
then the question ' give opinion on malaysia's education system'
* i just blarhhh everything that i could think of that time*
the final question, why architecture?

i couldnt remember if i ended few sentences with 'lah', you know lah, we malaysian what.

couldn't answer few questions. so i think it was terribly bad. i think i talked too much when i wasnt supposed to and talked too lil when i wasnt suppose to.

hm. not gonna think about it.hm... stop it!

goodbye mr bloggie, im leaving you for a couple of months.
miss me.

b.

helooooo

2009-03-19T06:47:00.001-07:00

im back! and with crutches. hah! only will be going back to jail next week. well, its actually not so bad. starting from next week, we get to go kayaking,canoeing, and everything. i bet its gonna be fun. but not the waking up early to wash clothes and bathe with the cold water. everyone's so friendly. even the malay chikopeks all.
haha. kinda miss it when im here.

maybe i'll stay for 3 months?

b.

goodbye

2009-03-19T06:47:00.000-07:00

i've got so much to blog about, but i've no time these few weeks. preparation for national service and bla bla bla. i'm leaving tomorrow. so i wont be updating for 2months.
i'm so not prepared to see any paranormal things or anything which are not meant to be seen by the eye. arghh..
may god bless me.

love.
b

2009-03-10T19:42:00.000-07:00

i just reached penang.
this trip was quite fun , as in when it reaches the end of the week.

last weekend, jade and i went to cherating in pahang. last minute plan though.
so i went back to penang with jade on friday and we hit straight to pahang the next day. the longest car ride trip ever, 9 non stop freaking hours to pahang. can you believe that? i would have reached australia if i took a plane to aus.. god... tiring but it was worth my 9 hours. the road up to genting highlands was darker than black. couldnt see a thing, thank god jade was driving her ford, the highlight could hit till 30 feet far, i guess. it looks like it. haha.

we left penang at around 2-ish , reached cherating at 12 midnight! we kinda got lost ... haha.
what... our first time driving there ok. pfft.
then joe and shereen brought us to our chalet. shared a room with jade's boss, carol and her daughter, erin.
very comfortable chalet we stayed in but the aches we got each morning when we got up was... bad.. i think it was the bed.

we got up early in the morning and settled down with our breakfast, nasi dagang! it was.. ahem.. not that baddddd.. not my kinda breakfast i would have everyday though. urghh. and the cats there were very jumpy and there were loads of them. they were jumping on the chairs and underneath our table. urghhhhhh. carol got disgusted by them and she was standing the whole time. haha.

so then we went ronda-ing around and went to a bar. hm. in the morning. haha.

later on we packed our beach stuff and ran to the beach, it was just right behind our chalet. the beach was amazing. the tide was quite low. so we went to the middle and they swam and as for me, i was lying down and start the tanning baby! sad that i cant join them for a swim.. it was the last day of my wings underneath which says bloody and no to water. haha!

the 'dont tell mama' cafe

hahahhahahahahhahahahah! what a name for a cafe.

the view from our chalet, so prettyyy

we left the next morning, 3hours drive back to kuala lumpur. stayed for 3 nights and here i am, home, penang.

a week of leisure

2009-03-02T19:30:00.000-08:00

as usual every morning, my head jerks up as soon as the morning light creeps itself through the curtains and into the room.
it's either my sis's room or jade's. sigh.
i've been staying with jade in kelana jaya and claud in bangsar.
oh ya, im currently in kl, bumming my ass around.
walking around. blarhh.
pretty boring.

see you soon mr.blog. as you can see im very bored now.

toodles..

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ohmmmm....

2009-02-23T08:34:00.000-08:00

i think i'll be practicing mudras from now on.

ohmmmmm... do not disturb me... lalat... ohmmmm

awesome, ain't it.

2009-02-18T22:42:00.000-08:00

they've already voted for the new NEW seven wonders???!

the old one was the great wall of china,the roman colloseum,taj mahal and etc. but some said some old ones are in the 'new' seven wonders of the world.

hm? that's why we always question the history.

ah yea.

this is my favourite, aurora . out of the millions amazing things god did, this is one of my favourite. they are actually natural lights which fall on the sky, it is an effect known as the aurora borealis. some people call this phenomenon the 'dance of the spirits'

few of my favourite images

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twirly twice thinking mind

2009-02-18T21:35:00.000-08:00

it.

i am not going to allow some random, inexplicable feeling to get me down...
but it does, all the time!
that huge, horrible thing that weighed on me for months and yet still flickering through my fantasies. this dread that i am feeling would not pass. its taunting my mind to be in a state which right goes wrong or vice versa. needless to say, the non fiction afterthought didnt agree with me.
i shall not know a moment's peace till i have a decision! i'd

sent myself mad if i kept changing my mind.

i'll feel a reprise of the feelings i had as a kid when i scribble shits on my sketch book.
it explains the feeling,it sets my mind awhirl, it sets my feet a dancing.
i have a pure passion for it, no doubt. but which path?

all of us are breaking our way through to the surface of something. some tiptoed, some jumped, some wobbled, some just... rised to the top.
some just have to fight in between those chaos. there's never a perfect life.
i just dont wanna regret.

i firmly believe that you live and learn, if you dont, then you might just need to drug out and get shot.

im talking about many things. way too many. heh.

the extra-a-day trip

2009-02-15T03:45:00.000-08:00

so mr eric pedley has free tickets for sunway lagoon, so the main reason of us all going down was for that. and of course we had tremendous fun. my first trip with them, paul, eric, joanne and justin.

justin and eric

me and joanne

we were actually gonna leave a day after sunway lagoon-ing. but eric's cousin had a plan of us that is to go for gokart. so yea we stayed till evening for that. but in the end it was a disappointment. we went to two tracks and it was all already closed. bummer.
so we headed to asia cafe for dinner.

i decided to stay the night at jade's and yea we partied at borneo with her boss and few friends.
richard was supposed to meet us there but he ditched us. well, it's not exactly like that but haha in a way he did! haha.

met up with hem and ken nie for supper! jade and i were so tired but i insisted on meeting hem before i leave the next day. haven't seen that fella for quite a while now. i missed him.

we reached the island late in the evening on valentine's! burned out as hell. the tired energy in me was collapsing my whole body down. the journey was supposed to be at 7 in the morning. but most of them, especially the driver, paul, got wasted the night before and me being their walking alarm clock is a waste of time.

many things happened that night. hm. but oh well, i spent my valentine's with two buddies. paul and eric. wanted to go to ss and mois to meet up with kimz and wee lee. but heck it was so packed! we did not even step into any clubs. we were at mr.pot for the food and smoky jack for the drinks and again late night supper at mr.pot again.

eric

paul

what a night.

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t'hotpusam

2009-02-08T20:31:00.000-08:00

thaipusam! never experienced it before.
but yesterday i did. it was hot, sweaty, and packed.
went with d, aunty susan (her mum), ivan (her cousin) and revathy (her classmate).
i actually walked up the hill to the temple and all the way down again. phew... it was a quite a walk.
i was sweating like a pig. i don't sweat like that ok. unless i'm on a trackmill. haha.
damn.. i got a tan and a sunburn.* i love tan skin * wink wink

the quote of the day.
ahem.
'it is not about the sunburn, the sweat or the heat, it is about the JOURNEY!'

man... i love thaipusam!

next year.=)

solemn stillness lay

2009-01-29T05:15:00.000-08:00

hm. i was just about to lay my head to rest, something then came involuntarily into my mind. many disparate thoughts gelled in my hung-over brain. heh.

i miss them. my friends. my whackiest classmates ever. so what if we're the noisiest class? or naughtiest? sure, we had our ups and downs, those girl/bull fights , being pushed to overload by some bitches, talking or shouting at a tone of voice which is a slap in the face, getting the unnerving stares from enemies. that's the whole fun of it! sigh. 11 years with them, the years go by as quickly as a wink.double sigh.

there's always a day when they're leaving. everyone. even me.
i spend almost half my life with my close ones, they're the ones who i know that even the biggest fight has no chance to ever break us up. i just hate the fact that i know that time would come for a roll call time for us to give each other the last hug.

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bedumbedumboombliak!

2009-01-29T04:19:00.000-08:00

i hate waking up early on the day i wasn't suppose to be up EARLY! the daylight was rudely and uninvitingly insinuating itself through the windows. hello?!
it was only the second day of cny, not the first day ok mr sun? stupid.

during the day, tha, anand , jade and i went to the beach at sunset. tha is a sucker for beach. she wanted to 'tapau' some of the sand back to kl. haha. can't blame her, she was only here for 3 hours. miss you tha.

come back soon. =)

party time....!
last night.

jade and i headed to batu feringghi to meet up with rach , sam , beenu and the rest.
d joined us later that night.

yea, flare again.

one thing i love about flare bar is that its not a club, and yet we can dance there.
there aren't much of a crowd there, less congested with people, so more space to DANCE!

after midnight , they decided to go downtown. ss was so pack, was stucked there, at the same spot, it was so difficult to even move an inch. then sam , d and i went to mois to meet willie!!!!
finally we got to meet up, after so long. well, not that long.. 2 months? haha. hey...but still.....

*scrunch face*

new year's 09

2009-01-29T03:45:00.000-08:00

i thought i would definitely be in kl for new year's but in the end , different plan. claud and jade are in kl, i usually celebrate anything and everything with them, but this year, i decided to be in penang, not sure why. hm?

rach and beenu

the crazy bartender

glad i did. =)

a mixture

2009-01-22T02:14:00.001-08:00

i will never ever forget that day! i had the worst food poisoning ever.

it started when..

saturday

it was my last day of work for hotlink, everyone was so tired but dawn, belle and i decided to go for another round of tomyam in one of the restaurant in bj.

i had tomyam for lunch too, judging by the colour of the soup which is reddish red, i reckon it would be as spicy as it looks. and so it was f'king spicy, i enjoyed it! the best tomyam i ever had, but of course thailand was an exceptional la kan. heh.

so after dinner belle dropped us home. aha! this is a funny one. i held my shit in for so long! 15minutes too long. i couldn't take it, so i told them, and they had to speed up. haha. the whole way, we were laughing non stop, including me. it was just too funny.

we were talking about shit till i got home.

they actually recorded the laughter, it was 2 minutes long and loud. we had only two volumes, loud and even louder.

im gonna get the clip from her and set as an alarm. i would be startled into yelping wakefulness by the laughter at all hours. it would wake the shit out of me! haha

and also it was the day my sister and jade came back from kl. they decided to go to flare bar. when i was on my way to batu feringghi, i started to feel sick in my throat and stomach.

so and there it went la my tomyam.. down the toilet bowl in eclectic. haha. i left a memorable trademark in eclectic.

jason castro!

2009-01-22T02:14:00.000-08:00

i just realised jason castro is good! he is not only good. but damn f'king good!

you know, i am so much in regret now for not watching him in american idol last season. bloody hell.

ok, so there i was in my usual 'hobby' browsing around youtube. and there i found him!

i think he is really really good looking.

you know what, i think i might have found a new hobby to do now, i would spend afternoons holed up in my bedroom watching him on youtube.

now.. i feel a small dart of triumph in me.

now everyone say.... jason castro is hot!

that night.

2009-01-18T23:34:00.000-08:00

my second night in QE but first and last ( i think) night in QE with sab.

that night we actually realised that that was the first ever night we went out together, haha. funny ay?

so yeah, we went for the miss behave night which is also ladies night every friday.

friday + ladies night = free drinks for the ladies.

so sab and i went to the bar. DRINKS! i drank wine the whole night and sab drank vodkas and some other mixes. she's quite a drinker you know. heh

we drank

we danced

we laughed when that fella fell. *laughs*

we partied

we smiled

it was a fun night i had, we had.

the brothers and also the strippers.

haha.

the sisters.

that night was a blast.

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tongue you!

2009-01-15T19:46:00.000-08:00

heh! nahh, not now, not later. probably later than later. late! haha.
hey! i have a reason for not blogging for few days ok, well actually for only two days.
few days back, i texted papa bear i told him if there's any job, give me a call!! because i'm already starting to rot here at home. feel like some sort of dead animal which is in the middle of decaying process waiting for the bacteria to form and spread all over me. hm.. or maybe a bread.

ok

so then dawn called few days later and told me she has a job for me! without any hesitation, i said yes!
basically , the job is just giving out flyers for 6 hours, something to do with hotlink.
but we only work for like say..... 2-3 hours? haha.

ok. bell is picking me up soon, i think i better make a move now to the guardhouse. toodles.

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playback

2009-01-15T19:23:00.000-08:00

ok. i cant really remember what i did or where'd i go past these couple of weeks so it's really hard for me to blog about them now. actually, i did nothing much, besides going to the bars , watching the band plays, dancing. hm. speaking of dancing, i haven't been dancing since before and after my exam. i mean like dancing dancing, not the fun dancing kind. hm. gonna get back to it once im done with everything. hm. since when everything ends? haha. but i'll dance soon,hopefully.

yes, i've been going out everyday but to nowhere. im getting a lil irritated by the boring weekdays and weekends. joanne and i will be calling each other every day . this is how our conversation would start everytime.

joanne : b! what are you doing?
b : nothing le joanne.
joanne : come le go out.
b : ok! where?
joanne : dont know le. i'll pick you up then we will decide on our way there

haha. funny thing is that, when we're on our way THERE, we actually dont know where's the THERE yet. haha.

see...... that's why i can't remember where i went to. ah. i went to thailand, that was last week. ok ok, i'll follow the sequence. i'll blog those which i have the pictures.
ok, so..
1) QE2
2)new year's eve
3)when jade's in penang
4)thailand

hm. i guess that's pretty much it.
and..... i'll start blogging about QE2 tomorrow!
hahaha! im gonna do something now! which im not sure what it is, but i know i will be doing something in the next few minutes! bye. i love you! heh!

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wedding song plays*

2008-12-16T09:07:00.000-08:00

ah. finally! my eldest sister is married now. well, its time for them to get married. no, its not like the eh, too old, time to get married, its just that they've been together for what 7/8 years now. the wedding was on 23rd novemeber2008. i've been so busy and lazy to blog about my everyday life after exam ends. so yeah late update you'll get from this blog. haha.

ok. pictures.

church ceremony.

the best friends

the champagne

the godparents

the family

the sisters

the cousins

my niece

the friends

ah.what a night.

guess who's back?

2008-12-03T03:13:00.000-08:00

OMG!
those months of toils, sweat and effort finally come to an end! i've done it!
no more school books, no more perdagangan, no more history no more other subjects!

looking forward to many things that is going to happen , or supposed to happened, and yet it is going to!

i miss sunrise now. i think it misses me more! heh. it's so wierd to not be there now, with my books, studying with ryn, con, juv and sab. we've been studying round the clock every single day, or well.. can i say which is barely an exaggeration. haha. we talked and laughed most of the time. but yea, we enjoyed every single moment in SUNRISE.
sure, it hadn't been a bed of roses , it had been 2 months of struggling to make it end. i miss it now! but what the heck! i've completed the laborious task. and now im breathing in the freedom fumes!

ahhh..

a day like this calls for a night out! but sadly, i'm not feeling well! blarhh. just gonna ride in with rach to drop jade's mummy to the airport.

later blog.

b

2008-11-15T03:56:00.000-08:00

you were that stick i puffed

that got me addicted

never felt something so strong

didnt want to check into rehab

stayed on

now..

couldn't recognise you

different taste, different smell

you were my favourite drug

you were ONCE that addiction

what happened?

uhh hmm i question mark.

2008-11-04T07:50:00.000-08:00

a day of weariness, thoughts and decisions. =)
should i or should i not?
i partied for 2 hours! it was keshure's birthday last night. i went for his party few hours back at his place. decided to go in the end.... well, hm?

happy 16th you.

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incessant propaganda of fear

2008-10-25T08:30:00.000-07:00

these few weeks DEMAND a pretty strict adherence to schedules and rules, unfortunately!

SO YEA,

too much coffee, inadequate sleep, and the skin is paying the price.

18 more days.

she does what she does. i do too

2008-10-23T23:03:00.000-07:00

sabrina and i planned to go to school today , i thought. *raise eyebrow* so i woke up pretty early for school and yea it was so so early, so i said to myself, five more minutes and i'll be up! it's been quite a while that i wake up to the early mornings. i knew that getting out of the bed in the morning is like many things in life, was much worse in the premeditation than in the actual fact, but i had to!

so the alarm rang. bloody hell, it was so loud! (didnt know my cell could be that loud) hoping that i would be able to slap the clock before it bursts into life! it could scream my whole room down.

i checked my phone, and read two texts from S. one of em' is '..... not going to school ' i could have guessed that so. that is why i set my alarm at 7.45. haha! after a decades of friendship, i've developed an awareness of her that sometimes borders on telepathy.

just realised something. i see this woman practically every single day. and today, we wont be meeting up ! thank god. sometimes i would secretly raise two clenched fists high up to heaven and demand to know what i had done in my past life to get lumbered with her. haha!

but i still love you S!

a sense of discovery

2008-10-21T08:10:00.000-07:00

ah.
my hand smells of ladybird

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confused clothes. i pity you.

2008-10-21T02:13:00.000-07:00

here is the thing, i have an awful lot of clothes and they're always here and there, even if they're in the closet, it'll be slipshod, in a choas, different compartments. disregarding time-consuming niceties like folding, i waded through the multicoloured swamp of the closet just to look for a tee. i get paranoid at times.

perhaps its time to get some highlights done.

ok. during the afternoon, i went to the education centre at dickens road to talk to the consultant there. and she gave me a bountiful of books about courses and colleges and universities.

this sets the clock in my mind for an alarm, it just went off. the secret to get things done is to act!

*clicks the switch*

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burgeoning bookworms.hah

2008-10-20T07:55:00.000-07:00

My life has been a series of easy yet so many choices. but now, there's only A CHOICE. so sick in the head, thinking that life's scheduled up, planned by someone, do what was planned or being told like a dutiful soldier. ahhh. my perfect world starts to crumble AGAIN.

blarh. another boring day with books, and yea with sabrina.
studied, talked, laughed, got distracted and took a whole slew of pictures.

but here's a few

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shouts

2008-10-19T12:01:00.000-07:00

i have a blog!

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newflanged!

2008-10-19T09:21:00.000-07:00

blog. me blog. i blog? (oh, i do now. haha! )
blog? my blog? my space? my nong-nongs? scribbles? my chin-chai-bo-chai? hm. i can just go on with my no end and excessive in length of list of these headings for my blog.

okay. The 'Wh' questions. why, what, how ( and why is how in the 'wh' word? oooo. this is the only question that you can use two different 'whs' in a question, i think so. heh. ) i created this 'chin-chai-bo-chai' 'bianca's chin-chai-bo-chai'. aww, sounds so cute. mummy, you should have named me that, my FULL name. or maybe chin chai bianca bo chai. haha.

yea okay, why?
because i wanna CUBA
what?
what's what?
how?
CUBA forced me

hm. hm? not quite sure what am i going to chin-chai-bo-chai in my nong-nongs. hah! i used the 'nongs'
well, its gonna be a mixture of asnkjdiuegnadmasdaisdmasndamwjehqnbx
ah. that brings alleviation of distress . ( im not having any mental pain ) dont know why,no reason for that, but whenever i type erratically on the keyboard, it feels good. dont you? haha.

clouds in my coffee ? what do you think b? b: i like it!
wanna know why ? ah, secret.
read my blog, you'll soon figure it out yourself .
*smiles*

*end of the prologue*

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